Fantasising about an unearned reality.

Sometimes I wish Life was easy and came with all the answers you know. That it was already laid out for you and all you had to do was live. Everything in life that was for you would come to you naturally without work. Things wouldn't be so hurtful, sadness would never come, pain would be an alternate reality. But I guess there in lies my fantasy. I stare at this picture and although I am no longer a little girl, I find myself still doing the same thing. Staring into a mirror and imagining who I will be when I grow up. Yet am I not grown? Is this not my future? Am I the woman that little girl thought she would be those years ago?

reflections

Well its that time of year again. Preparing to close another chapter in my life entitled 2010. It has been an interesting one I will definitely say that. I've grown to become very comfortable in this city I'm in. Developed some really wonderful friendships that I hope will last a lifetime. throughout this year though I have had many experiences that have broken me, hurt me, strengthened me, excited me, brought me immeasurable joy and lots of peace. I thankful that God has allowed everything He did into my life this past year. Its hard at times but I know He is molding me and shaping me. One day I will be a finished product, right now though I'm chipped ill formed, mispositioned and soggy (lol). To be finished though I know I'll have to continue to push and one day face the furnace called life. No worries though because I know that I'll be a lot stronger once on the other side.

Stylze

So what have me and my hair been up to? Lets fill you in

My locks are growing like crazy now that I have colored it is a lot easier to note the change in length each month by the line of demarcation of color to dark.

My hair doesn't curl nearly as easily and when I do get it to curl afters hours- a day of having it in curlers it falls flat in no time, so I have not been using my lock loops or bantu knot sets lately.

I can get my hair into one ponytail and have it not look too stingy, or at least bearable LOL Yay!!!!!! BIg accomplishment especially on those days when spending time on my hair is just not an option.

I have been experimenting on styles a little. Something to spice up my locks and bring new life into our relationship. I find I'm favoring the pin up styles more and more lately and more tussled appearance to set of evenings out works really well with my length the way it is now.

I do still to the braid out but not as much as I used to. I find myself free styling a lot more now, mainly because of my length and the natural bounce my hair has it just doesn't look as bad to freestyle as it once did at my shorter length.

I'm still in search of a consultant in the central florida area that I can go to when I just dont feel like doing my hair.

I change my reti schedule from every 3 weeks- front one week-end then back the next to and every 4-5 weeks entire head or split, which just did not work for me. My hair grew out too much in that time and it just took way too much time to complete my retis, time which I just did not have. It didn't look horrible but my hair also didn't look that great at the 5 week mark either. Definitely not the tapered look I'd gotten myself accustomed to. ;-) So I'm back on a 3 week half and half schedule, it works for me.

I definitely don't obsess over my locks anymore, well at least not as much as before lol. I've kinda just been allowing them to do their own thing, but I guess that's just natural now that my ends are completely sealed I really don't have as much to worry about. I wash them when I want, style them how I want or just leave them alone and it all works out the same.

The only thing is now that I've colored, I realized that i need some new type of conditioning treatment or something to restore the moisture balance to my hair especially to my ends. Anyone have any suggestions?

New landmark revisited, its awesome to have my hair tickle my neck, shoulder and face and freak out because I think something is crawling on me, only to realize that its my hair at its new length. :-)

I'm still totally in love with my SIsterlocks. Every new stage brings new life and a new quest to learn how to manage this hair of mine.

Year 1 of Chiropractic school FINISHED!!!

WooooHoooo. Last Thursday marked the completion of my first full year of chiropractic school. I am so thankful to God for keeping me and showing me favor throughout this year. My program is very challenging and time consuming hence my absence from the blogging world, but I loved every moment of it. Every quarter filled with new and interesting facts, experiences and knowledge that just excites me more and more about my soon to be profession. The holistic, caring and patient centered approach to health care that chiropractic presents is just so amazing and I just can't wait to finish and be amongst some of the finest physicians in health care! ;-)

In search of a good Florida consultant

Hello all, is anyone in the Central Florida region that has an experienced consultant that they would recconmend for a retightening?

17 vs 1 months comparison shots

TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK

Hey all so sorry for my delayed absence but I'm trying to get back on track. Ok so from the pics below I tried coloring with Clairol textures and tones but I also attempted to lift my hair with Clairol's professional basic white, now I wasn't sure if i was suppose to lift, rinse it all out and then mix the Clairol box color as is so I decided to mix the hair die with the basic white lifting stuff just to be on the safe side of not double bleaching my hair. When the color was in it looked great I loved it and I made sure to do my hair line last because I've been told that takes the fastest. So i let it sit the allotted time then 5 minutes before I was to wash it out I wrapped my head with a plastic bag ( had to make do I didn't have any plastic wrap or a shower cap) and I put the blow dryer on it to really speed up the process and to try and make the color seal a little bit more. The mistake I think I made is that I started to rub my hair but I should have just let the heat penetrate on it own. When I washed it all out none of the color was on my hair and my hair was a bright orange. Oh my goodness talk about nightmare. I calle dmy firends screaming My HAir My Hair My haaaaaiiirrrr!!!! Hence my blog entry a little while ago lol. The next day although it was still very bright it had toned down a notch and I received a lot of compliments which made me feel a lot better about my hair mishap. My friends loved it and didnt see what I was freaking out about, they said the bright color really looked nice and those areas where it didnt take as brightly just made it look like a more natural color and like i had natural highlights. The topping on the cake, I was in Walmart and this girl comes from across the aisle and stops me to ask me where I got my hair done when I told her they were Sisterlocks and that I colored them myself she asked if she could get my number so I could do hers LOL I was like ma'am, you just dont know the drama I went through to accomplish this lucky mistake, unless u wanna go bald I dont think thats a good idea lol. All in all I may not have done it right but it turned out well. The color kept darkening day by day now its more brown than red or orange, a much calmer color and I definitely have started appreciating it. I'm glad too becaus emy roots have started to grow out already and I couldn't imagine what it would look like with a brighter contrast, yuk. Anywoo I'm definitely loving my locks more than ever.

Now I'm just trying to find a product to use to moisturize my locks, it been almost a year and a half and all I've been using is was and an occational EO mix but I feel with the color My locks definitely need a little more TLC to keep them moist and soft. They were a little stiff at first but now they are back to being bouncy and they are still pretty soft. Any suggestions?

Update

My Ponytail is getting up there :-)

Update

Hello everyone, Life has been so hectic for me blogging became just a distant memory but not to worry even thought I was not blogging I was definitely taking pictures. My hair has grown a lot I think and it was very healthy. For the past 3-4 months I've just been in need of a change so I started on the coloring binge. I started with a rinse which did not take and then went to henna which was a lot of work and still did not take then I resorted to a do at home permanent color which also failed. At this point I was totally over trying to color my hair myself. But this morning I said to myself, self, give it one more go. It became very obvious that my hair is too dark and in order to achieve any type of color that I want I have to lift the color. So that is what I did. I bought some Clairol products, texture and tones dye and the BW lifting agent and went to work. OOOOMMMMGGGGG I do not recommend this to anyone. My hair my hair my hair. What have I done?!?!?!?!?! Some parts of it are orange some parts are brown and light brown ohhh just one big mess. Surprisingly though I'm not upset. I think its because I knew the risk I was taking before I opened the box. SIghhhhhh another hair mistake. I will post pics soon.

My Hair, My Hair, May Hair!!!!!!!!!!

What have I done?!??!?!?!? AhHHHHhhhHHhHHh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm coming back soon

Hello all sorry for my extended absence, Life has been a little crazy but I will be posting soon...

My baby needs a name!

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FINALLY GOT MY BABY! After a totally horrible experience with the first set of people I was trying to get a puppy from. I randomly came across this little beauty. She is such a sweet little girl. Very quiet and laid back and loving. She will lay in your lap and sleep all day if you let her. Its so meant to be. I'm so happy, I have wanted a dog for so long but always felt I just never had the time to care for one as it should be cared for. Now I have a little more time and more friends with pets which makes mid-day walks a little easier during school because we all have agreed to tag team with our schedules.

Sooo since I was soooooo disappointed the first time all the names I had to choose from I feel were for the other dog and I don't want to use them on her. Anyone have any Ideas? I'm really not good at naming animals lol, I've had tons of suggestions but nothing that I think fits her just yet. Lets hear what ya got!

Henna Experience

Well I finally got the time and the nerve to do my first henna hair color. I have to say that it wasn't nearly as messy as I thought it was going to be from reading other blogs and looking at various websites. It definitely did look like poop and the smell wasn't all that great but it definitely wasn't that horrible either. Anyway I just added warm tap water as the instructions stated and applied it to my hair. I didn't have a shower cap so I tied my hair tightly with two plastic bags and then added a towel on top to add more heat and to kind of catch any dripping. I let it sit in my hair for 3 hours and then went to wash it out. This was the messiest part, but still not that bad. I started in the shower and quickly realized that this was causing it to splash all over the place so i turn on the tub pipe and washed most of it out that way. Then I turn the shower head back on, it took about 30 maybe even 40 minutes to get the water to run somewhat clear. I couldn't rinse anymore so I got out dried my hair and looked to see what I got. At first It was barely noticeable, then in about an hour I noticed my tips and my roots were kind of red. By that night my tips looked kind of like a dingy red. It definitely showed up more in the sun and it showed up more than I expected it to but definitely not as much as I wanted it to. The instructions said not to wash with shampoo for 48 hours and needless to say the color was still coming off on my sheets and pillowcases. Finally I washed my hair with shampoo 2 days later and it still took 3 washes to get the water to run clear. You can still kind of see the color in the sun but mainly on my tips. It almost looks like I had color and it faded and its only left on my tips :-( not exactly what I was going for.

Now as for the softening quality of henna, I have to say I did not experience that. I hated the way my hair felt after I finished using the henna. It felt stringy and hard. After washing with the shampoo 2 days later it went back to its normal soft texture, it may be slightly softer than before but I'm really not sure because it had gotten so hard and stringy I was just relieved to have my softness back. What I did notice though is that my hair almost seems fuller since I used it. My locs are laying straighter and they kind of have a little more bounce to them than before. They also felt really light today again I don't really know if that's the henna or the tremendous amount of washing that I gave it.

blogging

so keeping up with my blog has not really been that easy lately. Being torn between wanting to post and entry of substance or just an update with pictures often leaves me not posting at all. Those times when I find myself with lots to say often come when I'm least able to jot down my thoughts for a post and when I have time to post I find myself with a loss of words. What to do what to do?

Just as an update my hair is doing well it is really growing and I can get it all in one ponytail but I don't have any hang time so I wont be wearing it that way anytime soon. There is still a big section in the front that is not locked yet but its getting there. I have not been taking a lot of pictures lately I've been too busy with school to even do my hair let alone pose for a photo opp. I've been looking back on old photo and I am really pleased with the progress my hair has made in fact sometime next week I think I'm going to shoot my original consultant a comparison shot in an e-mail. I still think the groundwork she laid is fabulous.

In other news I go to pick up my little maltipoo puppy on Friday and I couldn't be more excited. I've waited 4 weeks for her and I'm so amped! As you can see from my previous post I've gotten all the Little necessities and goodies all ready for her. Can't wait!

Finally as my life goes, these past six months have been very interesting to say the least. I have had an emotional roller coaster ride. I dunno I think I'm just at a point in my life where I want more, while I'm in the process of attaining more, if that makes any sense. I'm learning to be content, trying to be content, praying for God to strengthen me as I accept things for what they are but all the while desiring more. The funny thing is I'm not so sure if I know what that more is.

Till next time be blessed
Kay

Preparing for baby

Yep that's right I'm adopting a baby, A baby puppy that is! She is a white Maltipoo born 1/29/2010 and she was the runt of the little and the shyest of all her brothers and sisters when I first met her. I can't wait to see what her personality will be when I get her. At first I went to look at her sister who was a feisty and spunky little cutie pie but there was something about her that just appealed to me. I plan on spoiling her rotten! I'm so excited.