evolution

9 Months

thinking about my future...

I'm learning to pray for my husband even now. For his strength, for his purpose, for his protection, guidance, for his love for the Father, for his love for me. For him to be spiritually filled, exceedingly glad and ready to pour into the nations with me as I know he is doing the same for me. I'm learning to expand myself, embracing obstacles and phases that I did not see coming. I'm learning to accept the curve balls that have been and are destined to be thrown my way. I'm learning to gain knowledge and search for understanding even in a doubtful state of mind. I'm learning to trust in God more now than ever when everything in life is going well. I'm learning what it takes to be me, a woman, a daughter, a sister, a soror, a classmate, a Christian. I'm learning to be satisfied as I wait on what the Father has for me but most importantly I'm learning how to be the person God has called me to be.

Whats my redemption? Emancipationg from ignorance and an acceptance of self.

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Hello all just wanted to try something new with my Blog Hope you enjoy :-)

10 year old Sisterlocks vs my 9 months

Yesterday I met this young lady who had a head full of beautiful 10 year old locks. I was sooooo excited to see her and clearly walked up to her and asked if I could get a good look at her locks and so the conversation began. If I bump into her again I'll be sure to take pictures.

In other news I've been so busy with school and finals that I guess I've kinda neglected my blog I dunno, maybe. But my locks are doing progressively well. I've mainly been doing the braid out which is surprising because most of you who follow my blog know its not a style that my hair took to at first but now it looks pretty good with it. It still doesn't last longer than a day though neither do my curls even though I have not done any in a very long time. Its growing, slowly now a days but growing.
9 months and I'm still loving my Sisterlocks even with all its quirks.

9 Months

Hello all, on Friday I will be 9 months locked. This is where my hair is right now:
1. Back is locked
2. Middle just about locked
3. Front fighting it but on its way to being locked.
4. Reti every 3 weeks except this go around I've been busy with school and Thanksgiving so I had to push it back and for some strange reason my back has not grown as much this cycle. (maybe due to my rinse who knows)
5. I can get my hair into two piggy tails a style I liked to have fun with when I was a loose natural.
6. I have had to start putting Fantasia oil in my hair every now and again because it feels and looks so dry.
7. I rarely do water spritz anymore it actually makes my hair misbehave and dry out unlike when I was a younger newbie.
8. I try not to style as much so I don't stress my hair out but I kinda have been forced into it because its not behaving at this stage.
9. My hair seems healthy and strong although I went through a shedding phase all of month 7 and part of month 8. Turns out I just needed a good conditioning which I didn't want to do because my hair in the front was still unravelling. It didn't make the front any worse so whatever and my hair stopped shedding afterwards.
10. Using a rinse was a waste of my time all it did was make my hair dry.
11. Since month 7 I have been having the craziest itchy scalp which I did not used to have at all along with dry scalp.
12. I still love my locks

Looking forward to:

1. Coloring my hair with Lush Henna Caca Rouge-red or Manna?-----the chestnut one lol. I've looked up the reviews and I've look at a couple results on youtube and I like what I see. Plus from various blogs that seems to be the way to go as far as color with conditioning. Especially since I know from previous experience that my hair does not do well with permanent color.
I'm shooting for the middle of January before my second quarter of school starts but only if the front of my hair is locked because this method is said to really soften the hair. If not then I Will probably wait until about March for my 1 year. ( wow I cant believe how close it is)

2. I can't wait until my hair is long enough to go into a ponytail I'm sooooo ready to just throw it up and go.
3. Going to a consultant in January to get a good shampoo and reti and maybe a style, maaaaybe... its been a while ya'll.
4. being able to wash with regular shampoos the way I want to and to use conditioner.
5. Being able to spritz my hair again and let it air dry without it looking and feeling crazy.
6. My hair settling enough so that this build up goes away. Another locker maid a good point to me, she said that when her (traditional) locks were young she would get build up on a few of hers too no mater what she did but once they locked and fell it went away on its own. She said its probably just what that part of my hair has to go through in order to lock and once it does the buildup will go away. So I figured I would just stop worrying about it as long as it does really go anywhere that's too noticeable.
I have not really been taking any pictures lately I have been so Busy but I will try to take a few to post. But for the most part my hair looks the same at lease to me it does anyway.

peace

Whomp Whomp

Coloring a bust!!!! Sooo Um my main objective for adding a rinse to my hair was to deal with my build up issue in the back and my hair. DOn't you know that it did absolutely NOTHING!!!!!!!!!! Nothing do you believe that. The build up so still there bright as day I couldn't believe. SO what do I have to show for it nothing but crispy lock. After the rinse no color showed up at all like I said not even over the build up and my hair felt like straw. SO I had to take affirmative action and add conditioner lots of condition then after I rinsed and rinsed and rinsed I added some fantasia tea tree oil because my hair still felt dry and the braided my hair. I had no slippage throughout the whole process which was about the only good thing. Thats about it :-( I have not tried the shampoo yet because I didn't want to do too much to my hiar all at once. I plan on doing a moisture treatment with the SL products the end of this week just to make sure my hair has a little added moisture after the rinse. But all in all my hair feels and looks ok. Not as soft as it normally is but I feel after a few washes it will be back to normal. I twisted it and did a twist out which came out somewhat ok. Not a fav but definitely an option.

I Abosolutely Love My Locks... That is all! LOL

I gave into peer pressure ;-)

soooooo I gave in. LOL I said to myself, self stop stressing about your locks and just do what you want to do lol. I was in target looking for the Vo5 shampoo that gigglz talked about and looking straight back at me was the organics shampoo I picked it up and smelt it and it smelt so good then I saw next to it the Tahitian vanilla and ohhhh myy goodness it was like heaven. So I had to get it and I got a box of Clairol hot cocoa non-permanent color. Yep that's right I'm going to color, probably next week. I can't wait. Cross your fingers people.

8 Months

wow I've been so busy I almost forgot about my 8 months anne. I am absolutely in love with my locks but as all love does it comes with its share of frustrations. For one this build-up issue will not rest and I am at a loss for what to do. I have switched shampoos, I use a scarf i just dont know. Also the front of my hair still is not locked. It has actually begun slip can you believe it? At 8 months my hair is slipping, the unraveling at the ends has officially turn to slippage in quite a few locks. sigh. Also my edges have begun to get week since I have been retightening. I think this is partly due to me connecting some locks by a couple strands and popping them to seperate. So needless to say I believe I will be going to a consultant very soon. Other that that my locks are doing very well LOL. The back is really locked the middle is partly locked and some of the front is showing good signs of becoming locked soon and other just want to be free. Most of all my locks have lots and lots of personality.

I've reach 50!

Hey everyone, I have reached 50 followers. Again Thank you all for taking the time out of your schedule to read and follow my blog. :-) I'm so happy to know that someone out there or at least 50 someones lol want to know what I have to say and about the progression of my locks.

Until next time.
stay blessed
Kay

Bounce!

Hey so whats new in Month 7? Well my hair has some bounce to it y'all. Its not heavy or weighed down at all but I guess its reached the length where it just bounces now. I am soooooo excited about this. Because even when my hair was shoulder length it wasn't very bouncy at all. When I shake my head it just flows from side to side and and and when I SLIGHTLY TILT MY HEAD BACK MY HAIR SITS ON MY SHOULDER!! yep that's right it has been so long since I have had hair touch my shoulder. Also I have given up on the battle against build-up. No matter what I do its just not going away so how did I reach a happy medium? Mascara LOL I took my brush to my locks and painted away. I will wash my hair tonight or tomorrow which should wash the mascara out of my hair but hopefully the build-up will still be stained black. cross your fingers *X* But if not I'll whip it out again :-) That's all for now

Have a Happy Halloween
Oh and the funniest thing I've seen for any Halloween was from my classmates today they dressed up as Snow White and the Seven dwarfs. Needless the say the guy was snow white I wish I took a picture it was great.

Okie Dokie here is the outcome

Then I styled it...

I absolutely love my locks!

YAY they finally arrived!!

Well I got my loc loops today yay! I have been retightening my lock for the past week its really not so easy when I have to fit it in between studying and classes. Anyway I have retightened my entire front but not the back. I decided to trythe loc loop anyway bcase I want to wash my hair so I figured why not. I set it up and can't wait to see how it comes out tomorrow morning. Also here is a seven month pic

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There is beauty in the Broken

Broken, Shattered, Crumbling, Destroyed

Reach for your inner beauty, There is something beautiful almost majestic about those who struggle.

Have you ever looked deep into the eyes of the wounded

There in the midst of desperation and hopelessness there is a sparkle of hope, trace of happiness even if its just the one happy memory of days long gone

there in the midst of devastation is a trace of God

and for some reason no matter how unthinkable or how unbearable

you know better days are coming

there's beauty in the broken

Redemption~Learning to Love myself...

Redemtion~Learning to love myself.

What was my redemption? I've been liberated from bondage of the views and expectations of others.

Just being own my own and far away from home has sparked a lot of self reflection in. I’ve really been evaluating myself and previous friendships and previous relationships and the reasons why they worked and they didn’t and it surprised me to realized how thin the line between the two were. The biggest difference was my perception of myself at the specific time. I’m sure like many of you I’ve been in relationships were I just felt I needed to stress or even prove my feelings to the other party and I never realized it then because truly I just thought that’s who I was. I care about people a lot and I like to show them that but now I realize that maybe I was trying to prove it to myself. I was trying so hard for their approval, love and affection that I lost myself in the midst of it all. So now I’m beginning to realize more who I am in God, as a person, as a woman and as a partner. Its so funny how life’s experiences are all lined up to clarify future life’s questions. First step to learning how to love is truly learning what things make me happy. Second step is doing those things until the joy in my spirit just burst and spills over into my reality. Surprisingly even in the midst of some of my loneliest hours I am so happy. I feel blessed, I feel so loved by those who matter and as far away as I am from my Mother and Sister I feel closer to them than ever before. I guess what I needed all along was separation from the negativity that unknowingly was draining me. This chapter in my life seems to be one of discovery, challenges, peaks and plateaus, fulfillment, and most of all Growth. I wonder whats around tomorrows corner?
Until next time,

Be blessed and self-sufficient Know that you are wonderfully and beautifully made. Know that even in your darkest hour God is there to be a comforter, a friend, a lover, a partner, or just a silent listener. And if it’s your darkest hour things can only get brighter and just think how miraculous the light will be!

WOW

well I had my first encounter with racism this week y'all and wouldn't you know it was from black folk. *sigh* this was the shocker to me, the roles were totally reversed and I saw and heard first hand the things that in my mind make them soooo racist. Its crazy I was sooo prepared for it to possibly be from the other end of the spectrum and some point in time maybe. But man oh man having it be the reverse really caught me off guard. I know i'm being so vague and maybe not even making any sense to those reading this but I just had to vent in some way.

First Day down 9 hundred and somemore to go LOL

Well I got through my first day of Doctoral School today. It was cool I was so Anxious last night and even this morning. But most of the people there were very friendly and welcoming. It was a little disheartening however that out of a class of 80 there were only 5 African Americans. *sigh* Thankfully I have had a very diverse child and early adulthood so this isn't really that strange to me but I mean 5?!? I guess that just means I have to be on my game 75 times as much. In a way I feel like I have to prove myself as if just being there isn't testament enough to that fact that I am just as capable and competent as anyone there. Ah but such is the life of a young black women on a professional path in a big not black world. Please don't get me wrong this is not to offend anyone or to place blame or play the race card, nor am I prejudging because no one has treated me differently or unfairly in my one day of attendance LOL and the administrators have been wonderful since I've been dealing with them, but that still doesn't change that fact that in the entire school of a few thousand I have been told, the Black community does not surpass 30 people. I feel like I have to represent, like all eyes and assumptions are on me and based on those that came before me whether they succeeded, exceeded expectations or just got by.

Question to those who are in the workplace or school and are really the minority of the place do you feel that you have to work twice as hard to prove yourself or do you just do you no matter where that places you?

In the picture above is one of my classmates who I met prior to school starting. She is a lovely young lady and we have become good acquaintances and hopefully with time great study partners and friends.

just a bit

Hey couldn't sleep so I figured I'd update my blog.

My hair is in a weird state these days the back is really sealing well almost all of it. I can clearly see it still has a long way to go but its well on its way most of them really aren't loose at all. The front however has condensed and has more of a fro appearance which makes wearing it out a little difficult. As I often say I don't really care for big hair and that is the appearance I get right now. It looks like its trying to start to seal but its just mostly unravelled. ( not slipping though)

I will be 7 months in a couple of days. I didn't really take any pics of my hair out lately but I'll try to get some in a couple of days.

Fall hairstyles

Hey so my computer decided to work today so I'm taking advantage of that to post some pics of some styles I have been experimenting on. I was jst twisting my hair up and I loved the way it came out, more so than anything I have done with my hair before, I thought it was very classy yet calm enough for everyday wear. This is def a style I will repeat.

Then after the style got old I took out the smaller twisted side and wore it half up with crinkles.

the final is just a basic pin back which is kinda how I wear my hair the most these days.